Waiting....

I am sitting here at four in the morning, unable to sleep again, waiting for the time when this baby decides to arrive. I am 13 days away from my due date and most the time I am waiting patiently.  The days are so busy with being a wife, mom, and homeschooling my girls.  But,  at other times, like at four in the morning, it is so hard to wait.  I want to see my new baby.  I want to know if baby is a boy or girl.  I want to feel that precious babe laid upon my chest for the first time.  I want to see my hubby's face as we welcome this new baby into our arms.  I want to hear that first cry.  I want to be nursing baby for the first time.   I want to see my four daughters welcome their new sibling into their lives.  I want to see the excitement of the grandparents as they hold their new grand baby.  I want to smell the newborn smell.  I want to fall asleep with baby sleeping on my chest.

While I'm waiting, I am nesting!  I am dusting the ceiling lights, vacuuming under beds, washing window screens, organizing my spice cupboard, cleaning out the coat closet,  freezing some meals to have post-baby, ummmmm...lets just say it again... I am nesting!   Anyone who has been 9 mos. pregnant can relate to this I'm sure (hubby laughs that I need to get the pantry organized before baby arrives but you pregnant mommy's understand!).  I change my mind hourly as to when I want baby to arrive.  At times I want it to happen right now .... I just can't wait!  At other times, I look at my list of things I want to get done before baby arrives, and I want him or her to wait until the list is complete (but please don't baby as the list will never be complete!).  I am so thankful that God will decide when baby arrives and that I don't have to make that big decision.  I am trusting Him and His perfect timing, sometimes patiently, sometimes not so patiently!

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding."  Proverbs 3:5

Are you hoping for a boy?

The question I have been getting over and over again lately  forever is "Are you hoping for a boy?"  I have been getting this question since my second pregnancy, and now being on my fifth pregnancy, you can imagine how many times I have answered this =) My answer is "Yes, I am hoping for a boy but no more than I am hoping for a girl!" Seriously, I know some people have a hard time believing that but it is the honest truth.  Some people even assume we are only having more children because we are trying for a boy.  I have been so blessed with the gift of four beautiful girls, and I will be just as blessed with another girl, as I would be with a boy.

My daughters and I were talking about this Monday when I was asked this again, in front of my girls, at the zoo.   I always wonder how this makes my girls feel when they keep hearing people say "Are you hoping for a boy?"   I explained to my girls that each and every baby is a GIFT, boy or girl, and that no matter how many girls we have they are all so precious to us.  My oldest said "I hope so, that would be so sad to live in a family that didn't love you."  So, I continue to answer this question honestly.  I am hoping for a boy, or a girl, and feeling this baby in me and seeing my growing belly, I'm pretty sure I'll be getting one of them in the next month!!!

"Every good gift and every perfect gift is from above."  James 1:17