Waiting....

I am sitting here at four in the morning, unable to sleep again, waiting for the time when this baby decides to arrive. I am 13 days away from my due date and most the time I am waiting patiently.  The days are so busy with being a wife, mom, and homeschooling my girls.  But,  at other times, like at four in the morning, it is so hard to wait.  I want to see my new baby.  I want to know if baby is a boy or girl.  I want to feel that precious babe laid upon my chest for the first time.  I want to see my hubby's face as we welcome this new baby into our arms.  I want to hear that first cry.  I want to be nursing baby for the first time.   I want to see my four daughters welcome their new sibling into their lives.  I want to see the excitement of the grandparents as they hold their new grand baby.  I want to smell the newborn smell.  I want to fall asleep with baby sleeping on my chest.

While I'm waiting, I am nesting!  I am dusting the ceiling lights, vacuuming under beds, washing window screens, organizing my spice cupboard, cleaning out the coat closet,  freezing some meals to have post-baby, ummmmm...lets just say it again... I am nesting!   Anyone who has been 9 mos. pregnant can relate to this I'm sure (hubby laughs that I need to get the pantry organized before baby arrives but you pregnant mommy's understand!).  I change my mind hourly as to when I want baby to arrive.  At times I want it to happen right now .... I just can't wait!  At other times, I look at my list of things I want to get done before baby arrives, and I want him or her to wait until the list is complete (but please don't baby as the list will never be complete!).  I am so thankful that God will decide when baby arrives and that I don't have to make that big decision.  I am trusting Him and His perfect timing, sometimes patiently, sometimes not so patiently!

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding."  Proverbs 3:5